What is it like having a baby while having a baby.

 I still can’t believe that I am pregnant and having my fifth child. It is still shocking to me. People look at me like I am crazy and have a lot of opinions. Sometimes I question if I am crazy. I remember being told that I can’t have children and now pregnant with my fifth I know is nothing but a blessing. 

Hashim recently asked me what it was like having a baby while having a baby. That question first off shocked me, like umm, don’t you know by now. But then I really put some thought into it. I realized that the hardest part about having another child is really how it affects the older children. All my children are close in age but there is a gap. Anaiah will be at least 5 years older than Lafond Baby 5. She is super excited and understands what is happening. Especially since she is a pro at this point. She is concerned and completely involved. Every other day she asks me “so how big is the baby now Mommy?” I think she knows more about this baby and this pregnancy than I do.

Zaire is still a baby himself. Which prompted the question. He will be about 18 months when the baby is born. Right now he has no idea what is going on. As my stomach gets bigger and he gets older we will continue to tell him and prepare him. He has noticed my belly getting bigger and my belly button coming out. He is starting to play with it. Right now for him he is still the baby and is treated as such and will continue to be treated accordingly based on his age and development. Example, when he finally decides to start walking he will be walking as much as possible. 

Zariah doesn’t seem to care much. She is happy because she thinks babies are cute. But she is really into her own thing or hanging out with her sister. So as long as that is all good she is all good.

I think the child that is most affects is Yasir. He really is attached to me. However he and Hashim are super tight. But he still likes to be held and cuddled. Since I am tired more than he is used to, he doesn’t understand why I’m not picking him up. He still wants to jump on me and climb on me and play. I don’t always have the energy or strength. He still wants Mommy and how I feel doesn’t really matter, especially because he doesn’t fully understand. He knows there is a baby, but I don’t think he will fully understand until the baby is born and at home.